What it is, at least in part, this pull toward Annamarie, is that I have never felt in someone's proximity (is how I'll put it), an utter and complete calm come over me as happens when I'm near Annamarie. The phenomenon deserves more description than that but for now it'll suffice. Something palpable and not easily dismissed. I am at ease in a way that, having reflected upon it, is remarkable. And I don't mind it at all.