Sunday, July 20, 2014


i had a dream several months ago.

someone/thing was at the door that he didn't like. he hissed and yowled. unwelcome company.

i guess that's when i started making room for the notion that his last day would come. 

that day is here. unless he passes today, i will take him in to be euthanized tomorrow.

and then i will go away awhile. 

we have had a good goodbye phase.

zen was born 20 march 1997.

my little heartbeat.